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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
| Nurse's aid? October 14, 2007 10:45 p.m. Related Reading So I ran into some old friends of mine today. Actually, I don't know if they are so much friends as aquantinces, but I keep running into them I was at their wedding. I have so much admiration for both of them that I guess I've always felt a bit beneath them and not so much as equals. And it is really hard for me to be friends with someone I don't feel equal to. And I don't mean that in a bad or negative way. I mean, I like to be on the level. I want to know that people are as passionate about things as I am. I want to know that my friends are unapologeticly themselves. If someone isn't true to themselves how can I be true with them? If they are fake how can I connect with them. If they aren't curious about the world around them, wanting to know things,...learn new things. Anyway, I guess I've always felt that both of them are such amazing artists, and so smart. I'm always intimidated. Both had scholarships to so very upscale art schools. Both are Very good. Today when I saw them I found out that the house they've moved into with a basement they were planning to convert into a studio....not so good for a studio. The guy is currently a manager of a studio, and she is studying to be a nurse's aid. The realization was so disappointing. All this time I've been feeling like I've been slacking. They both a had a show about a year ago, and I was so impressed and thought I was really slacking. And now I'm hearing them tell me that they haven't been working much, they haven't had the time. They are focusing on their family and they are putting their artistic educations aside. It really is shuch a strange feeling. It really seems like I'm taking it as a sign to work harder, not give up. I know they are signficantly better artists than I am,......but damnit. I want to be an artist, and I've seriously going to fight it. |
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