So I ran into some old friends of mine today. Actually, I don't know if they are so much friends as aquantinces, but I keep running into them I was at their wedding. I have so much admiration for both of them that I guess I've always felt a bit beneath them and not so much as equals. And it is really hard for me to be friends with someone I don't feel equal to. And I don't mean that in a bad or negative way. I mean, I like to be on the level. I want to know that people are as passionate about things as I am. I want to know that my friends are unapologeticly themselves. If someone isn't true to themselves how can I be true with them? If they are fake how can I connect with them. If they aren't curious about the world around them, wanting to know things,...learn new things.
Anyway, I guess I've always felt that both of them are such amazing artists, and so smart. I'm always intimidated.
Both had scholarships to so very upscale art schools. Both are Very good.
Today when I saw them I found out that the house they've moved into with a basement they were planning to convert into a studio....not so good for a studio.
The guy is currently a manager of a studio, and she is studying to be a nurse's aid.
The realization was so disappointing. All this time I've been feeling like I've been slacking. They both a had a show about a year ago, and I was so impressed and thought I was really slacking. And now I'm hearing them tell me that they haven't been working much, they haven't had the time. They are focusing on their family and they are putting their artistic educations aside. It really is shuch a strange feeling. It really seems like I'm taking it as a sign to work harder, not give up. I know they are signficantly better artists than I am,......but damnit. I want to be an artist, and I've seriously going to fight it.
10:45 p.m. - October 14, 2007
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