I know, I've promised to write more. I'm trying. I just have to make a point to just sit down and do it.

I swung by good ol' Dland tonight and noticed that Justin Winokur updated. His updates are always amazing. I think he really is an amazing man. He's so passionate and emotional. His updates make me laugh, make me cry. Every update is a joy.

I don't think I've mentioned this to very many people. But

I received a call from Mr. Justin about a week ago. I was so so surprised It just blew me away. I couldn't believe that he actually remembered us. And not only did he remember us he remembered specific things. He seemed really interested in what had been going on with us.

I mentioned the fact that I am now epeliptic and how it is hard not being able to drive for 6 months and he told me that in Sweden if you are diagnoised epleptic you can never drive. He knows a guy who had never driven a car. When I think about how I love to drive. Not only the freedom of being able to move yourself around and just go where you need to go when you need to go. I forgot what it's like to be tied to the schedule of another person. I doesn't matter if I get out of bed on time, ready to go on time, if my ride isn't I'm Late. If I get out of work early I can't grin and head for home, I have to wait until the normal time and hope my ride shows up on time and not 10 minutes late. ...

But the truth is I really love to drive. I love night driving. There so much freedom driving around in the still of the night though cool night air, under the stars, feeling the wind blow over you, rocking out to some great music. I've had a lot of nights when I've been quite depressed and driving around just to drive until I felt better. Ironicly I used to do this to the song Drive Me Home by Garbage on repeat. It is an amazing song and I always fight back tears when I listen.

But, anyway, I'm getting off the point. I don't think I mentioned this in the previous entries but I had my first sexual encounter with him. And it was Amazing. It was hot, it was sadomastistic. It was just a one night thing and it still gets me that my first experiance with sex was a hot kinky one night stand. I know Mike is always telling me how I'm teaching him to be rough. He's told me that his first experences were very loving. Hot, but very loving. ....Mine was extremely kinky and I had bite marks for days. ...And Mike is teaching me to be more loving and tender. ...I do have such an intense desire to be rough, but I also love to be held and cuddled. Mmmm I actually asked him one time if I was cuddling with him too much. Sometimes I feel a little silly about how open I am with PDA's.

but, I think the point I'm trying to make is that Justin is a hot guy. I really hot guy and he is very sexually open and I was of the opinion that he had probably had numerous sexual encounters over the span of his trip and I thought I was just one of them. ...And I was really strangely cool with it. I didn't expect of ever hear from him or see him again.

But I was surprised that he did remember us and that I'm a naughty thing.