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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
| Serenity June 12, 2007 11:57 p.m. Related Reading Your word for the day is Serenity So I'm not quite sure how to write about this. I finally got my sexual itch scratched. It is so strange the overwhellming feeling of calm that has swept over me. I don't have this constant need to talk about sex, or read about sex, or listen to naughty stories, or to get turned on a go play for an hour. Now, this isn't a product of my prolonged absence, nor is it the reason for the absence. This is actually only something to come about today, so quite honestly I could be horny as hell again tomorrow. But it is so strange to not need sex. to be satisfied, and content. I was just checking Violet Blue's Website out of habit, and found it interesting. And I saw she had finally posted several new podcasts, and I downloaded a few and started listening. But I was sort of numb to them. It just don't need the stimulus. I'm content and satisfied. that constant ache of always needing is gone. My hunger has been fed. It changes everything. remove the element of constantly searching for sex and things just change. we'll see how the world looks tomorrow. I make no promises that I won't be a wild girl again tomorrow, but it is so nice to be in the calm and note constantly frustrated. |
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