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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
 The Book I'm suposed to read.January 30, 2006 2:25 a.m. Related Reading I think I solved my reading problem. A while back, maybe a month or 2 ago I was in barnes and noble. I was in the new age section and I picked up a book a book on Wicca and I read the interduction. It was basicly like a Wiccan mission statement. and I was agreeing with it all. I desprately wanted the book, but it was $25 and I was broke. So now as I've been questing for the next thing to read, nothing has felt right. I've started just about every book I own, read a few pages and put it down. Not that was bad, it just didn't feel right. I started reading Matildia last night and I read about a third of it. Becky told me it read fast, and it does. I enjoyed reading it, it is good, and I read it fast, but I just didn't feel right. So today I went to borders. I stumbled around picking up books. I picked up a book titled The Master Colm Toibin. (no, it's not about bondage.) It has a beautiful cover, and I read a few pages in the store as I was fairly confident that I wanted to read more. But when I went to barnes and noble later to pick up some Tea, I wandered around and found myself back at the wicca book. I sat down in the aiale for and read the first chapter. I then walked to a table and read another 30 more. I was so inspired. I had this feeling in my bones that there was a book I was supposed to be reading, and this why nothing felt right because I just wasn't reading what I was supposed to be reading. And I knew then that I had found it. I even read more this evening. The book contains, for lack of a better word, exercises and I worked on 2 of them. They got me thinking about things. So now I feel like I can sit down and read something, like Matildia, or harry potter and really enjoy them, without this constant feeling that something is missing in my life. Sadly, I think I have to put off starting The Master because I do want to finish up some of these things. ...which again, I think I can do now and be perfectly satisfied. |
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