Raven in Green again..

nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME

--Wurdz by Otep Shamaya

The Weekend Report.
October 14, 2002 11:11 p.m.

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I had a rather eventful weekend, I feel compelled to list. ...combining a wonderfully simplistic and short manner that I find amusing with longer bits of the story.

Firday.

Saw The Red Dragon. Awesome flick. Go see. ...who knows maybe I'll do a review.

Saw the Otep boy at Blockbuster. He's cool. I dig him. ..He told me that he used to have social anxiety which I found interesting because he doesn't seem shy at all and is rather Charismatic. I told him that I was convince that I would never see him again. He said that he had actually seen me around alot last year. (Yea! I was memberable to someone who didn't even know me!) Oh and he and his friends were looking for an old vampire tv show.....this gives him bonus points because I dig vampires. I took my name from an old vampire tv show (Forever Knight). Plus I read vampire books and comics and watch vampire movies. Oh,...and I was speaking with him when my peeps were checking out. ...I was in the middle of explain the installation piece in the university Gallery when my friends called me away. Bastards. But I guess that's more of a reason for him to get in contact with me, right?

Hung out with the Cermic grads. Got pretty drunk. Climbed a ladder to the roof (while being drunk) somehow mannaged not to kill myself. Oh and watched one of the boys wear a Bears helmet and head butt a grill across the yard.

~smile~ Went and ate at the IHOP with The Ceramic Boy afterwards. He's cute.

Saturday.

Went to a party, got even more drunk. B and I split a 5th of Bacardi's new rum that is a mix of rum, Tequila and lime.
That's right, the 2 of us drank the whole thing in a night. I think I drank about a 3rd, he drank about twice as much as I did. It was wonderful! We were both plastered. Since I had gone over to his place for dinner I ended we ended up getting someone else to drive us to the party, but since I was in no shape to drive home I stayed at B's. For once I noticed a benifit to my being so pure and virginal. When B is drunk (as drunk as he was that night) He has a tendency to have the desire to make out with someone, usually someone he wouldn't normally make out with. ...unattractive people...close friends. Luckly I have never been on this list. And I'm glad. It is my assumption that he has so much respect for my purity that even in this state he won't approach me in this manner. ...And I really dig that someone can have that much respect for me. (plus I have absolutely no desire to make out with him).

Sunday, nothing incredibly awesome to share.

Monday.

Mentioned the T boy the B'sformerhousemate'sgirlfriend. She and I have been becoming better friends. She is a really cool chick. I dig her alot. She's really funny and she's really smart. It's so rare of find chicks like this. I'm surrounded by dumb ones! But I've told her that I think she's cool and that I've always wanted to talk to her more (outside of class) and that I didn't wanter her to be just a single serving friend...Anyway she was at the Party sat. night and I had told her all about Otep, even about the cover art. And today, I was pretty sure I would see her so I brought it with me. And when I showed it to her I asked her if she was the one who told me she knew T, she said yes (rather quickly and enthusicasticly, oddly enough) and I commented that the cover art reminds me of his art, and she entirely agreed..and spoke briefly about it. Anyway way, who knows if anything will come of this brief mentioning. We'll see. He's been on my brain since I saw him the other day,...but after seeing the Otep boy again, and my going to IHOP with the ceramics boy, it's almost like God telling me,..Look, This guy really doesn't deserve you, ...these are guys who want to be around you. Anyway, this has gotten quite long. I think it shall end now.