Co dependancy awareness day.
February 14, 2005 8:55 p.m.

I stopped by work tonight, wearing a my fantastic boots and my pinstripe skirt...Feeling good about myself.

And of course I got hit on by my married male co-worker. ...He's always offering to give me a massage or making S/M comments. ...like today he asked me where my handcuffs where. Again, Married, And they Just had a kid this month. Again....making sexual advances on me with a new son at home.

The night before I had some other guy complaining to me about his girlfriend.

In short, my opinion is that this holiday is such bullshit. Why on earth do we need a holiday to show the people we care about that we love them? Dude...it's seriously all or nothing. If you are shitty to someone every other day of the year...was is today going to make a difference? ..And really, what is this sex only one day a year thing....why is today the only day that people know for a fact they are getting laid? Maybe I'm just nieve and sexually inexpereced....but I'm of the opinion that days should be set for Not having sex. ...I mean...Everyone should be having so much sex, all the time, whenever they want it...that they have to plan days when they arent' going to have it. And don't give me that bullshit about having to much and getting bored. No. if you're getting bored, than you're doing it wrong. My orgasms keep getting better.....I'm starting to lose my ability to stifle myself...getting louder, more vocal. They just keep getting better and better,...and my imagination is getting stronger and stronger....I'm coming up with all these crazy fantasies that are 10 times better and intense I had years ago. I mean....dude...I have this awesome red wig I wore with my mystique costume. I'd love to put it on with som boots, a tiny skirt...lots of dark eye make up....and pretend I'm Shirly Manson for a night. ...mmmm kinda hot ....play the rock star and the groupie game.

Point being...this idea of buying candy and flowers...and little things covered in hearts to show someone you love them is ridiculous. It's cliche...and boring.

Now...sending someone a sweet little card for an adorable little kitty just to show them you care...entirely unsolicited,...just because you want to (not because of what fucking day it is)....That is Perfect. That makes me smile.

Ugh...I'm becoming such a girl! I've have been smiling this ginormous smile for the past 3 days all because of a boy. I can't believe it! I'm smiling! I think I'm pretty damn close to happy. Just knowing that there is someone out there that is thinking about me...thinking good things about me...that's really powerful. thinking about me and it doesn't matter what day it is.

And yeah....I'm thinking about him too.