While I was here in the lab tonight (I know I know, still in the lab ~pout~) I noticed that a friend of mine was working here tonight.

This chick is awesome! I love her so much. (I mentioned her the other night, she's the chick that greets B by putting her boobs on his head).

Anyway, she is more open about her sexuality than any other person I know. I find it very fasinating and informative. I mean....being that I have absolutely no sexual experience...and this chick does everything. She and her man are swingers. She's actually very bi and says that if she and her guy ever broke up she'd run straight to the otherside and never look back. (and if I were ever inclined to try the girl thing (which I'm not, but if I were) I'd want it to be with her...to quote Trainspotting "You fancy who you fancy, it's all about astetics and fuck all to do with morality.")

At one point she doing some male bashing and was talking about the certain type of man she hates and why the are awful in bed...and she said something like "You know, whenever they do this"...and I was like um..no actually I don't know. ....and then told her how inexperienced I am. ...and she thought it was cute....and then when I told her (she guessed) about the never been kissed thing, she uttered along string of "nutnutnutnutnutty! How is that possible! don't think I'm macking on you are anything, but your gorgeous! How hasn't...." ~smile~ I enjoy compliments way to much. Partly because I never get them and I act all vain And it's my diary which is the only place I acted so vain. Really I'm not near so much.

The thing is, when your are almost 22 and never been kissed you can look in the mirror and say "wow I look good to day" ...and walk around all confident, but at the back of your mind there's always self doubt...It nice when the voice of approvel comes from someone other than me.