Raven in Green again..

nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME

--Wurdz by Otep Shamaya

Sculpture and boys.
February 07, 2003 4:27 p.m.

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Odd how it seems that most of the events in my life can be reduced to 2 things. Art and boys. Side Note: Everyday I am more and more intrigued by the fact that I have so many male friends...and it's not that I don't have alot of girl friends...but...Most of the people I associate with on a regular basis are male.

Anyway, that is beside the point. This is supposed to be an entry about sculpture.

I started my second large scale sculpture on Weds. In 2 days worth of work I can honestly say that if I continue at this rate I will be done very soon....and that the piece is really good.

I found these strips of metal look almost like metal railroad tracks..only smaller. ...One of the boys keeps saying it should be a tribute to 9/11. ..because I guess these types of thigns were used in the WTC and these metal pieces are all twisted forming these curved pieces. The lines are so lyrical and beautiful. I started just standing them on end and forming a spherical shape. ...for lack of a better world. ...One person said it looks like a cage...but now it has become so much more organic. Very Tree like...or bush like. I love the idea of how this piece looks so organic...like something taken directly from nature...and yet it's also very manufactured. ....it's great. I already love it. ...My prof. hasn't really said anything about it. I asked him the other day if it would be okay if I just started welding the pieces together without a sketch...and he said that would be fine.

I guess to most people this would be a rather un heard of concept. ...just picking up pieces of metal and welding them together with out much more of a thought. ...But to me that's very natural,..my work is always very instintual, whether I'm painting, or drawing, or now sculpting. I always say that I have taught myself the skills and I need to trust my eyes and the skills I have aquired and by trusting those things all will work out in the end.

One thing I liken this whole process to is that...it's almost like in the scrap yard there are all these sculptures lying about in pieces...as if for some reason they were taken a part. ..So when I go out there...when I find some metal I like I dig and pull out as much of it as I can...and then when I take it back to the studio and start putting it together....it's like I'm putting it back together. Every piece belongs and has a specific spot..and it will tell me where it belongs. ...It makes me feel so free just just pick up a piece of metal...walk over place it on to the piece...and maybe it will take a few different placings....usually no more than 3..and the piece will fall perfectly into place...and I weld it there. ....It's so satisfying.

Oh and....~smile~ the reasoning for the 'boy' reference at the beginning. ..The Ceramic boy was helping me hold and weld things upon occasion today...see he is considerablly taller than I so at one point I was going to have him hold something...but then just decided that I would be easier for him to just weld it ...given the height and angle. I would have needed a chair to stand on and would have to move it into place just to be tall enough to reach it...but by using the chair it would be hard to get my hands and arms in just the right place to weld comfortably. ...Him being so tall it wasn't a problem for him at all. ~sigh~ ........Oh and he's been looking Good lately. Real good. I just need to keep reminding myself that he has a girlfriend.

Side Note: ....Oh I found a picture online of the hot printmaking prof. ..it isn't great...but it's better than nothing.