Raven in Green again..

nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME

--Wurdz by Otep Shamaya

The scarey near future.
August 12, 2003 4:37 p.m.

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*note the Raven girl has been in a weird mood as of late due to the fact that she is moving out of her apt in a week and moving back in with her parents, having officially graduated college and trying to start an art career.

How am a I feeling? Well, it feels as if my life has 2 options at the moment. ...it is either going to fall to shit in the next month,...or good things are going to happen. ..I'll find out if I have anything in the swope show by the end of the week. ....though I'm not optimistic because I submitted B work because all my A work is going to Rose Hulman. ...and apparently 88 pieces were selected......from about 750 entries. The Raven girl entered 3. You do the math.

I could really use a nice merit award from the Rose show.

Oh and there's a job opening in my mom's office....for an actual job. full time. ...and as much as I hate working there....it's money, security and I have experience.

I'd like to get to a place where I can get an apt with my friend Becky. that would be nice.

**Oh and on a completely unrelated side note, Andrew Osenga having a show this friday in Nashville. I'm really thinking about going. but I need to find someone to go with. Maybe Dali. ....But call me pathetic but I'm going to call Jeff tonight (I think sometime around 7pm) and ask him if he would like to go. ...As formentioned I've really wanted to go to an Andrew show with him. ........and on the off chance I actually speak with him and on the ever greater exstreme, he agrees to go......should I be spending that many hours in a car with him given the lack of events this past month? ....eh....maybe that would be exactly what we'd need.......force us into talking.

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