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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
 Thunder is FearMay 01, 2004 5:15 a.m. Related Reading This Weeks P-O-Y This weeks topic was inspired by Unconscious Mutterings, another prompt site.... Below you will find 10 words, chosen at random. With each word you will respond with the first thing that comes to mind..... But let's take it another step further, shall we...... Of the 10 words, choose one, with the corresponding response and expand on them. Perhaps your response to that word was drawn from a memory that word posed or maybe it tickled your funny bone or inspired other creative ideas. The possibilities are endless. Peanut Butter - Jelly Insatiable - Desire Daisies - innocent Chewed Gum - solid, hard Gang - Rape Thunder - Fear Monster - Hurt Soda Pop - Fizz Insecure - Frightened, reluctant Forest - Green Thunder I have always been afraid of tornados. I think this might have been fueled by the lovely informative films on tornado survival I was forced to watch in elementery school. This combined with the fact that I live in Indiana and our summers are filled with tornado warnings. I guess what scared/s me is the fact that it was ingrained in my head that they can happen anywhere at any time and that they distroy everything and to be in one meant (as inaccurate as it is) death and a horribly unpleasant one at that. Usually a tornado watch can be found coninciding with a Sever Thunderstorm Watch or Warning. And with this I guess spawned my fear of Thunderstorms. I am so afraid of thunder and lightning storms. They show how big the world is and how powerful, showing me how small and weak I am and that if it had a mind to it could reach down and squish me like a tiny bug. when I am caught driving in a storm I feel as if the world is closing around me, as if any moment could be my last. I feel so weak and helpless. I've had some really bad experiences with this, an hour to go with my heart in my throat, my hands shaking, hardly able to focus, speeding down the road, 'baby stepping' my way to my destination, every moment feeling like an eternity, praying that I can make my destination safely. Usually all it takes to get to this state is a loud crash of thunder, I could be sitting in my house hearing this and be instantly fearful of looming death. I know I know....it's uncalled for..and abnormal and ridiculous, but I can't help it. Maybe had a past life and died in the last ice age, who knows. But....for whatever reason Thunder to me is Fear. |
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