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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
  he better not be playin' me, though I'm getting scared he is.July 06, 2003 3:39 p.m. Related Reading Ugh....I'm freaking out and I know I shouldn't be. The problem is that whatever the situation is with Jeff, all I know is that without even realizing it I just let myself become so vulnerable with him and now I'm sort of convincing myself that that's he's playing me and I'm gonna get hurt. I mean....I know he's not a player and chances are that he's not playing me............but that's my rational mind....my irrational mind says he's playing me and I'm gonna get really really hurt this time. but I mean, honestly how often have I been played? If I've been interested in a guy, more often than not, he had played me. T, M, The Ceramic guy....list goes on. Ugh...and I'm chatting with him online right now....and he's not saying much. Ugh.....I am seriously going to get hurt this time. ....I'm hating this only getting to see him for a couple of hours every 2 weeks or so. Eh....and now he just signed off without saying goodbye to me. I don't even know if he's in town. he better not be playin' me....though I'm getting scared he is. |
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