Nothings changed. The Senates still corrupt and the Emporer remains insane.

nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME

--Wurdz by Otep Shamaya

2001 | Summer | Fall | Winter
2002 | Spring | Summer | Fall | Winter
2003 | Spring | Summer | Fall | Winter
2004 | Spring | Summer | Fall | Winter
2005 | Spring | Summer | Fall

April 30, 2002 - what's wrong with me?
April 29, 2002 - more on sexual tension with B
April 29, 2002 - B, sexual tension
April 26, 2002 - 13 thoughts in my head.
April 26, 2002 - Overshares.
April 25, 2002 - Josie and the Pussycats.
April 23, 2002 - and it continues
April 22, 2002 - continuation of the Anxiety attack.
April 22, 2002 - My panic attacks have now become anxiety attacks
April 22, 2002 - whine whine whine.
April 22, 2002 - Review of 13 ghosts.
April 20, 2002 - small party
April 18, 2002 - Freud vs. Artists.
April 18, 2002 - Me whine about being single? never...
April 17, 2002 - How on Earth do I decribe this?
April 15, 2002 - T hypothetical
April 14, 2002 - Such a Twisted World
April 13, 2002 - Folklore Project
April 09, 2002 - Impressing the friend of a friend......who is a friend of a friend.
April 08, 2002 - my messy room
April 07, 2002 - Lisa Loeb and verbally abusive relationships
April 07, 2002 - A Quote from House of Leaves.
April 07, 2002 - Cathartic Venting.
April 06, 2002 - I had a psychic reading today.
April 05, 2002 - offically 6 months since I last spoke to T
March 31, 2002 -

went out drinking again....think I'll drink more. next time.
March 29, 2002 -

Easter Rant
March 27, 2002 -

T at the Coffee House today.
March 25, 2002 -

Trent, the sexiest man.............in the world
March 25, 2002 -

Deep thoughts on Drinking and Grind dancing.
March 24, 2002 -

B and C's 21st B-day
March 20, 2002 -

digging, and crushin', and hopin', and praying..
March 20, 2002 -

No more CKY for Gab
March 18, 2002 -

NIN and the youth of America
March 18, 2002 -

secret
March 18, 2002 -

6 Feet Under tonight
March 17, 2002 -

Coffee? T? Me?
March 17, 2002 -

"A dick in a glass case....incase of emergency, break glass"
March 08, 2002 -

Photocopy's diary
March 05, 2002 -

Panic Attack
March 05, 2002 -

BJ and Cason....love the Normals
March 04, 2002 -

Drawing class. UGH
March 04, 2002 -

I'm a 5 year old sitting at the grown up table and I don't know if I want turkey or dressing.
March 02, 2002 -

I'm Angelina! Heck yeah!!!!!!!!!
March 02, 2002 -

A picture of Stuart Townsend
March 02, 2002 -

Queen of the Damned. What book were they reading?
February 28, 2002 -

T relapse
February 27, 2002 -

Hope? riiiight
February 27, 2002 -

Child Mullets
February 26, 2002 -

Melodrama Queens
February 24, 2002 -

the favorite author of some Christians
February 20, 2002 -

hmmmmm wrists?
February 18, 2002 -

Alan Rickman and Trent Reznor
February 17, 2002 -

Sex and the single girl.....or not
February 15, 2002 -

The Day of Evil was Salvaged. (national Singles awarness day)
February 11, 2002 -

Here, read some of my Art Now homework.
February 10, 2002 -

conversation about calling T
February 10, 2002 -

Don't you talk to Billy Idol that way.
February 10, 2002 -

Someday I will write an entry that does not mention one boy. (that's not this one)
February 09, 2002 -

funny link....WEEEEEEEE ignore the porn.
February 08, 2002 -

This is a long entry,...but ALOT of major things happend today.
February 07, 2002 -

Isn't it Ironic, don't cha think?
February 07, 2002 -

an entry by Charm City
February 03, 2002 -

Every thought pestering me right now.
February 01, 2002 -

My Mariah Carey future.
February 01, 2002 -

"you and me, we're in this together now."

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