Raven in Green again..

nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME

--Wurdz by Otep Shamaya

I can still be smart and funny when I'm bitchy and bitter.
November 20, 2003 9:37 p.m.

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Raven: that's basicly it....I got invited to a party they are having. ....twice. One the innitial invitation and the second a reminder!

Raven: And I don't know if I told you this.....but I got invited to the Catus Thursday of Monon Bell weekend!

Marty: nope, you didnt tell me that

Marty: what is it?

Raven: Wabash/Depaw game weekend. ...That would be like gearing up at the catus for a Purdue homecoming game where they would be playing IU or Notre Dame!

Marty: oohh

Marty: gotcha

Raven: I mean....that's insane! So basicly Every member of that group would be participating and fired up. Why the hell would they invite me to the Biggest Thursday night Catus for them of the year?

Raven: Oh...and I emailed Sean last night explaining why I couldn't come to the party......he responded back with "Ok. You will be missed."

Raven: btw...didn't go to the catus. got the email around 10:30 thursday night.

Raven: I mean what the hell is that about....I "will be missed" ....why am I missed so much now....than say 5 months ago?

Not going to party
November 20, 2003 3:51 p.m.

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I'm not going to the wabash party on friday. ...the legitimate excuse I have is becaues I already have plans.

When I emailed Sean telling him the situation...he responed back with:

"Ok. You will be missed".

am I wrong in thinking that is a mind fuck? because me miss over analytical....am constantly thinking every invite is a mistake...and the time and time again I'm proven wrong (like the double invitation to this party. (the originial and the reminder)

and now telling me I'm going to be missed? Who's gonna miss me? Everyone one.....Sean? Jeff? what the hell!

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