Raven in Green again..

nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME

--Wurdz by Otep Shamaya

New Years
January 01, 2003 8:01 p.m.

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Best New year's ever I'd have to say. ..and before I go into detail it makes me wonder...if last year's new years was the best one I had had up until now..and last year might have been one of the worst years of my life... Though I have recovered and put most of it behind me and I'm looking hopeful to the future...it only makes me wonder...

But yeah..I hung out with the same people I hung out with last new year's. ...only the main guy who threw the party just came briefly last year and we all decided to go back to his place for awhile last year,..This year, he had an even bigger place and we made the point to try and get as many of the same people who were there the year before...and then some. There was a huge turn out! all old faces from highschool..and those being ones I didn't ming so much seeing. ...We just all got really drunk and had a great time. I popped my Yegermister cherry to the toast "To the wo/men we love, To the wo/men who love us and if the wo/men we love aren't wo/men who love us, then fuck'em! ...I liked the toast. ..And I wouldn't have been so drunk it wasn't for the champagne ....there was an ungodly amount of champange...at least 6 bottles. ....5 of them were Krupps...and one large bottle of Martini and Rossi..<---and that stuff is good! I really disliked the Krupps and I had that before...but once I tried the M&R ...I just couldn't get enough of it...every time my glass was empty I was real filling it..mmmm couldn't not get enough of it.

Yea for new years.

Oh..and one of the people who as there was one of the art people from my high school. I have never liked his work, I don't think he as ever liked mine...and also around are senior year or so he got this huge chip on his shoulder...well as of last night he had lost some of it,...it was surprising cool. and I have to admit that for some reason I was oddly attracted to him....just the fact that he dresses Emo and he's an artist. But...I can't help that I still dislike his art. He told me the url of his website and nervously I checked it out...still the same old thing,..and his thinking it is great. Maybe I need to get a personal page up with my art...I'll ask him how it did it. ...My work is so much better.

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