I know, I know, I haven't updated recently, but I have been really quite busy, and everything has just made me completely and utterly scatter brained. I feel like I have about a hundred different things to do in every aspect of my life.
I've been thinking a lot about this whole art situation. ...I had to return to my university for a retirement party for 2 of my favorite professors, and this wasn't near as enjoyable as I expected. I'm rather glad that my mom asked to join me at the last minute. Most of the people there were really old alums that I didn't know. And t he ones I did know I wasn't entirely of that circle. They weren't my 'best friends ever'. This is what I get for making friends with the math and science people over the spacy artists.
but, it was actually kind of depressing to be sitting there a struggling artist when most of the people there were quite successful. I suspect most of them had been grad students in the program and I was only an undergrad.
This one guy was kind helpful, but he was also being quite an asshole. So I took some of his suggestions to heart and tired to blow off his critisms.
I have 2 main goals.
1. Establish and new body of work. With this I can look for shows or shops or grad schools. Now this takes time and money. But I'm currently working on a new series of non objective paintings, some of images of such things can be found in older entries. And part of me wants to do more portraiture. ...and now as I recall I have some frames at home that I really should stretch this evening. being that I don't have the money to buy pre stretched ...and I want to start something new. I've found it is much better to have several pieces going on at once, just in different stages. This way when you work for a few hours on one, and are alittle blocked or waiting for things to dry, you can work on another. currently I'm waiting for Carrie to get back with me so I can finish my portait of her. ..and I think I want to start a self portrait, and another writing painting.
I was told that the artist needs to find their nitch, and do that. ...and for awhile now I've been wrestling with my need to paint both representation and non representational. But I think I've decided that my voice and vision are so distinct that they cross those borders fairly freely. I am your source for aggressive paintings with bold colors and crips lines. ...whether that piece is representation or non representation.
2. I need a webpage. ...I mean a Real Webpage. ..My own domain name and everything. I was told that this is really easily done though Go Daddy dot com and I checked it out the other day and it seemed pretty reasonable. ...so I get my website up and running and then maybe I'll be google-able again. ...maybe I'll get some kind of exposure. I have a lot of work and experience running a site, so I hope I can making it look nice and professional and organize my years of work to be found and bought. Plus, when I get my website up I will be able to give bri the url and he can inform his friends who enjoy my pieces that he has displayed in his home.
..and on other fronts I've been trying to actively look for a new day job. ugh. people have been quitting left and right at work and it's really depressing being the last man standing, especially when I am far more educated and intelligent. I'm putting in an application for borders. ...it's nice to include someone with an important entertainment industry job as a reference. I hope that will help me get my foot in the door, but I suspect that I will be asked to take a major pay cut and I don't know if I can handle that. ...I mean, I know I have a shit job, but I get paid better than most comparible fields. But, hopefully they will see my qualifications and understand that I am a good asset and I can eek in with a decent starting wage. (that is of course if they like what the see and get in contact with me.
in general, I'm trying to get up earlier and be more motavated.
I've read places about depression that lasts for long periods of time......it's not a constant extreme state, but a fluxuative negative string. ...feeling down and unmotivated.....but not so consistantly bad to trigger major symtoms or help. .....I wonder if I just fell into a big pit right after I graduted and I've been really just beaten down and unable to really get myself out.
But, that's gonna change - I'm going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. Now I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already.
(I'm gonna be just like you. The job, the family, the fucking big television. The washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electric tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisure wear, luggage, three piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption clearing gutters, getting by, looking ahead, the day you die. ~ Your Trainspotting quote of the day)
4:08 p.m. - July 27, 2006
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