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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
 the Kuan Yin BellMarch 27, 2005 3:04 a.m. Related Reading  Outside my apartment hangs the bell that is pictured above. It is called the Kuan Yin Bell. Symbol: invigorates positive chi (energy), removes stagnant and malignant energies, promotes constant flow of beneficial chi to its environment, and scares away evil spirits. really, it hasn't been there long,...now we can argue that it is a symbol...and it's being there...psychologically changed my mind set, We can talk of the circle of life and how good with inevitablely follow the bad....or maybe there was something mystical about the movement of good chi into my house... But my life is good right now. ...I mean it's not great...I could always use a better job...but mine gets me by. I have great friends...I have a great flatmate. And good things have been coming into my life. of course the good I speak of is the boyfriend. I don't know if I'm happy right now...but I know for a fact I'm not sad. ...dare I quote Trainspotting and say for the first time in my adult life I'm almost content. He relaxes me beyond words. He is a true calming influence in my life. And dare I say I'm developing sexual confidence. In fact I was out with friends tonight and I just had this different feeling over me...and I liked it. ....this inner confidence...maybe the Raven empowered. ...but...it was like I knew I was a goddess. I knew and that meant everything and it was totally empowered. I've never felt like that. just calm and sure of myself. it could also mean that I didn't have to impress any one. There is one person I have to please, that I want to please....I'm not out on the hunt anymore. not completing with anyone. I'm at peace. I'm calm, confident...and he has brought this to me....all this good that has come into my life. And now I need to take all this and put it into my art. I need to fight. I need to fight. I need to fight I need to fight! What is next? |
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