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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
![]() KinseyJuly 18, 2005 3:28 a.m. Related Reading Wow, I can't believe that it has been almost 2 weeks since I last updated. Craziness. I can't believe I become one of those people. Really, I do have personal life tales to tell, but I think I will voice my return with something I haven't written in a great while. A Film Review. That's Right, I've finally been moved enough by a film to write something about it. And incase you don't remember,...I don't right "Film Reviews"...there aren't the type of thing that one would find in a news paper. As I've mentioned before I write reviews for things when they are really good, really bad...or just for some reason strike a chord with me and make me feel compelled to write. That movie this time is Kinsey This was a film I had been dying to see as soon as I learned of its existance. I'm not sure we had it in the theaters here, if we did it was for a limited amount of time. But on a whole, I was fine with waiting till DVD. So the other night Becky and I were trying to decide what to watch, I was verstile that night, she however wanted something relatively uplifting,....and well...our current show of choice La Femme Nikita...isn't quite uplifting. So we started watching some Star Trek and that wasn't doin' it for her either. Finally I suggested we watch Kinsey...as we had been in poscession of it for about and week and really should get on watching it. I had heard it was rather comedic and lighthearted. And really we were so please with what we got. It was Amazing. It reminded me alot of the Vagina Monologues. Now, here's the thing. It reminded me of the time when I visited the Kinsey Institute. Funny story, I don't know if I wrote about it before. Back when I was in college I was a member of SOFA (Students of Fine Arts) and this one year we had a big group. Pres., Vice Pres, Secretary, the works! And they were all these over achiever types, our pres especially. Imagine Hermione as a 30 something Soccer mom Graphic Design Major. Yeah. super dooper oober conservative. Now...in her overachieving ways she decide we should go on a field trip. She read about something big art show at Indiana university. The ad in the newspaper dropped a lot of big names like Rembrant. So she called and set up a field trip. It turns out the art show was at the Kinsey Institute and no one was aware of the content. Being that everyone in my group was extremely conservative (which is surprising for art students) they're jaws dropped and they couldn't stop blushing. When we got there they gave us a small tour. They showed us around the main office and into the back where they do their research, the lady told us of some of the studies they were currently conducting. Then we went into a small group instructional room. I think we might have watched a short video and the woman told us more on the history of the institute. She passed around some of the books they had published. then she took us too the exhibit. You see the institute had been collection tons of art work over the years...things would be shipped into the country that would have been stuck in customs if they hadn't been for "Scientific research". and over the years all this 'pornographic" art had been just taking up space in storage, the Kinsey Insititue decided dust it off and actually display it. There were things of all kinds Japanese painted story book...there was a pair of stiletto hees that must have been 8-9 inch high. And we aren't talking about drag queen heels. We are talking significant tip toe walking....I of course thought they were absolutely hot. The Rembrant was a tiny pencil drawing of a couple having sex. One piece I really rememberd was a charocoal drawing of a man in a business suit. from the waist up hair was combed and is shirt and collar straight, but from the waist down it showed him holding out his cock. I loved that drawing. I just stood and stared at it for so long. What I really took from it was that we all look normal. We where the clothes, we can maintain appearances, but deep down we are all animals...we have this wild primal instances...and everyone has them. As we left the institute everyone was talking about how shocked and embaressed they were, and our pres was apologizing! I couldn't believe what uptight pruded I was associating with! and the best part is that not just anyone can walk into the Kinsey institute. It is a place of serious business. They take what they do very seriously! so you can just walking in and ask to read husler for and hour (though they do have a subscription to it). A friend of mine went to IU and she had never been in the institute because she never had a serious reason to go....mmm but I have! I did! How cool is that! I love the the fact that I've been there even if it was by accident! Now I keep wanting to go back and find out more information. As far as the film is concerned I though it was a very poiniant statement about sex in our culture. The film spawned conversation. It made me have ideas. ...yes there was conflict, yes there was a multilayered plot, but I'm not getting into the technical aspects. The truth is it is sad to see how not much has changed. Understanding how the country was so excitied to read the titilating details of what men do with their private time,...because clearly we know all men jerk off and all men have sex....and that's okay, and expected so of course we all want to know the juice details (Like how everyone had to read the (Ken) Star Report). but when they released their findings on woman....BAD! they didn't want to know that women masturbate and have sex....and god forbid that they like it! it's amazing the things we know about culture ...and yet we are still surprised by their actions. Over all....I can't tell you if this is a hollywood film glamorizing a normal conflicted man. I don't know how accurate it is. But it is damn entertaining, and it makes me said for those who are so sexually narrowminded. I was reading this book about the multi orgasmic female (which confused me because I thought we all were) and it said that multi orgasmic females often masturbate. We learn the ways our bodies work and then we are able to tell our partners how to please is. We are also more inclined to experiment with vaginal stimulation when we masturbate along with clitoral stimulation and learn how to have very deep, intense vaginal orgasms. Multi orgasmic women are also more inclined to give oral sex. I read 2 full pages detailing the qualities of multi orgasmic women.....and I couldn't believe how dead on it was. I couldn't believe that everything could be all tied together. but it was seriously dead on acturate and made so much sense. See,...I really enjoy vaginal stimulation,...more then most women I'm aware of...I mean...I love my clit and I love it touch and rubbed....but....damn...it doesn't beat having something inside. I used to think this was strange...being the one women in the world who perfers a vaginal orgasm....but reading that passage in the book...it explained everything so perfectly, and all of a sudden I was no longer a freak, but Enlightened! It said that the brain patterns during a deep vaginal orgasm are comprable to those sustained during deep meditation. ...mmmm no wonder I feel so damn good afterwards, why I have to have more. What I'm getting at is I wish more people would open up more to understanding how they work and taking pleasure in it. I it frustrates me that people think masturbation is sinful. I think it's a sin when it's out of control and out of hand....but so's everything. If you make TV or Xbox your life and put it above everything in your life, than its a sin, But taking pleasure in the way your body works and feels....how is that bad? it's like doing yoga or going for a nice run. anyway,....I think it's time for me to step off the soap box and read some Harry Potter. |
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