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Your subconscious mind is driven most by Kindness

This means you have a deep desire to be kind and fair to others. You may even be preoccupied with finding kindness in the world around you, far more than you realize on a conscious level.

It is possible that the underlying reason you seek kindness in the world around you, is that you fear cruelty, the opposite of kindness. That could drive you to unconsciously project kindness wherever possible into your world. Regardless of its origin, your steadfast adherence to being kind to others is felt by people you are close to.

You are probably more susceptible than others to being overwhelmed by emotions — both yours and others'. It is possible that your unusually empathic nature is a result of your natural sensitivity to others' pain, and your desire to help them avoid it. For this reason, things might affect you more than they affect your friends and family. To protect yourself from too much emotional intensity, you might want to keep an eye out so you can recognize it when it starts. That will allow you to slow things down until you feel grounded again.

Overall, your strong orientation towards kindness gives you an optimistic nature, which translates into you seeing the best in the people around you. Because you're not one to be overly judgmental, others may seek out your company when they need a friend to talk to. People close to you likely know that you care deeply about the inner lives of others and can listen to what they have to say without imposing your views on them.

Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Kindness

IQ Test
May 24, 2005 3:49 p.m.

Congratulations, Raven!
Your IQ score is 127

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Insightful Linguist*. This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

*Am I a Cunning Linguist? ...sorry couldn't resist.

although, it is annoyingly evident that I'm suppose to be an artist.

It's frustrating knowing that the people I care about have no idea what it's like. They don't understand how my mind works, they have too much expectations when viewing my art.

"It's nice, but I don't know what it means".

My work is cathartic, emotional, pure,...which it hasn't really been as of late because well.....kinda hard to be an abstract expressionist in my living room....I, like Pollock, could use a shed in the back yard. I could get behind that.

What I create is pure truth. I reside my self over to the muse and she works through me....no thoughts, just action.

And that's the reaction I want.

I want the visual impact to be over powering, I want to take someone to this emotional place. it's frustrating when the feed back I get is, "that's nice".

My parents have a ceramtic piece that is pointing and violent, but also natural and elegant....like a mob of thorns.

"You're Father and I like the little man with his hands on his head."

And sure enough, there was apart that kinda did look like a man with hands on his head.

People often tell me that every piece can't be a sledgehammer. ...I guess that's my one flaw (One?). I want every piece to have to same power. I guess I do want every piece to be a punch to the gut. Is that wrong? I guess in a gallery exhibit...I suppose it is.

I finally got around to watching the last to eps of Six Feet Under Season 4. ...Honestly, I think they slavaged the season with those eps, kinda like how the saved season 4 of Alias with the 2 hour special last week.

I loved the end....,And I love Claire and the Whole Claire storyline....She makes me want to make art....so I need to make art.

Season 3 just came out on DVD and I want it. I so Want it! I fucking love season 3, but it's 80 dollars. ...now granted that's an introductery price so it will jack up to 100 soon....but I just can't afford it, and that pisses me off. What's with that? I mean...I can buy sex and the city for 30-40, Alias for 40, Buffy for 40-50, why is Six Feet Under 80-100?!?! Fucking Bullshit. I've just been standing in stores starring at it and whimpering.

Last night it was Borders. Becky was buying some books and I just stood at the front of the store starring at the box and whimpering. Whimpering! ...and petting it occasionally as well. Becky had to pull me away.

but, then we went to Barns and noble (btw their price was 100) so I could get the new Revolver which has Trent on the cover, looking oh so fucking hot. Even has a fold out poster of him looking damn fine. I think I should frame it.

I guess what I was getting at was that was suppose to make me feel better....heh, shows how well that worked.

Oh, but while I was there I read the New York Times Arts section, something I really haven't done in a long time. I love reading the art section. I know I know, I should read the others, but damnit the world just depressed me now.

Back when I was taking my ART NOW class I would go to the coffee house and study almost every day, and they had a new york times for browsing...and I would always read it...and I was really up to date on all hte new trends and what plays were coming out, and what films were making a stir, that's how I found out about Secretary. There was a review/article on it and knew I had to see that film, so when it finally came out on DVD I rented it and well....the rest is history.

anyway, I should start doing that again.

I should try and break out of my self imposed bubble.

Maybe I'm still depressed. Is that why I'm so unmotivated?

Anyway,...time for a spot of lunch.

cheerio.