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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
 POY - Hope FloatsJuly 24, 2004 9:14 a.m. Related Reading This week's P-O-Y. This week we have a quote from the movie 'Hope Floats' to inspire us.... "Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad, but it's what's in the middle that counts. So, when you find yourself at the beginning, just give hope a chance to float up. And it will." Whenever I'm confronted with extreme Inspirational quotes....I have a bad habit of retorting with cynicism. In regards to this quote I am immediately thinking of a line from the dragonlance book, Dragons of Autumn Twilight, which goes something like this: Hope is the carrot dangling in front of the horse to keep it prodding along. ...never growing closer. What we should do is take the blinders off and walk forward with our eyes open. Yea for the optimistic Raistlin. I think my problem is that I am at the beginning, waiting for the hope to float up. And this is a pretty big beginning. ....and there was alot of hope at the top...and as every day goes by it keeps sinking and sinking. It's almost like its a heavy weight on a chain, and I've been tugging on the chain trying to keep it from settling all the way on the bottom, but as of late my arms have been getting very tired. and it keeps going down link by link. It all started with the whole Jeff thing. ..and that was a couple of links. ...but generally they been really starting to go down since March when I was layed off. So this shot in the foot my ideas of getting a studio. plus I've been really broke. I've had so many job interviews....that I think go well..and then I don't get them,...or my lovely one week situation. Oh yeah, and then there's the whole Andy from Jakes situation. It just seems every time I come close to something....it pulls farther away.....seems like the carrot is a better comparison....or maybe I've just become jaded and cynical and I'm too young to have compariable good trends in my life. |
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