Raven in Green again..

nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME

--Wurdz by Otep Shamaya

The BFA scandle
October 27, 2002 9:59 p.m.

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I found something else out last night. It seems the powers that be are not allowing the BFA show to take place in the University gallery. For whatever reason they are making us show in this other gallery that really sucks.

not only does that gallery suck...but there is a bunch of us graduating this year! it would have been a struggle to fit us in the Univrsity, and the other is smaller! So we could be limited to only 2 pieces per person.

So I decided to be evil and before I relay this news to anyone I'm going to submit a purposal to have a show in the Student Run Gallery (the one where I had my Dante show) at the same time.

And since I know who is running that gallery next semester, I should be gureeteed that my proposal will be accepted.

Who's running it? The Ceramic boy. ~smile~

He also said he'd be able to get me a show in Charlotte if I wanted. He said it was a good town because stuff sells really well there. Yea!

Hobo fire with the ceramic boys.
October 27, 2002 9:25 p.m.

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So by now you would think I would realize that if I'm going to hang out with the ceramic boys, and what not, I'm going to being way to drunk. That just seems to be how it turns out. We'll all be sitting and chilling, and talking and usually with some sort of adult beverage and since we hang out forever,....before you know it you've had 5 drinks! (last night it was a weird mixture of red wine and beer..don't ask).

And yesterday was bad because I had been sick and had basicly slept for 24 hours and really hadn't eaten much in the past 2 days....so...yeah.

Oh and I figured out why this one friend of their's dislikes me. (I mean she has never said she dislikes me, nor has anyone every told me this but I kind sorta figure it out...)

See, I've always thought she was into The Ceramic boy. She always seems to be flirting with him...and he usually plays along,...so even though I kinda dig him I usually on my best behavior in regards to him.....However, I found out last night that she and another one of the guys used to be together....and I never could have guessed that!

Now...I know this guy thinks I'm hot (he told told a friend of mine) ...and he is always jokingly hitting on me, and I will usually play along because I know he's really not serious about it, and he's a really fun guy,.....And this has happened countless times infront of this one chick. In fact he's the guy who always invites me over to hang out with them...I mean he's usually the one who is the most vocal about it. So yeah, I can understand why she doesn't like me.

Also...The Ceramic boy ended up drivng me home last night, see I was way to drunk to drive, and b's house is just creepy.

So after he dropped me off I immedately when inside and changed into pj's, not even bothering to take my contacts out, just climbing straight into bed, (being around 5am) then a bit later my phone rang, which worried me because ya know, who calls that early? I thought it might have been an emergency. But it wasn't. ..The Ceramic boy had looked up my number online and was calling to say that he would be willing to give me around to my car. How cute is that? Made me very happy. ..and I think I will start another entry for my other happy story.

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