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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
 such a girlFebruary 17, 2005 11:59 p.m. Related Reading Okay, so I know I wrote that the Mystique layout fit my mood, but that's wrong. I was looking for a picture of a hot chick with a "don't fuck with me" vibe...looking feminine and sexy, and I really wanted alot of violets and reds and pinks....and last night when I was looking for a new picture for my computer wallpaper I found this and it was exactly what I was looking far. I had my interview at the arts federation the other day, I think it went pretty well...but it was only a first interview, they are supposed to call me next week for another, more formal interview. But I do...I think it went really well! It is exactly what I'm looking for! ...well except for the fact that it's part time....but the lady said they would like to make it a full time postion if they get the means. But...it would be doing office work with people who love art! I'd get to talk with people who want to see art! I'd be watching the gallery from time to time. This is so perfect for me! I'm so qualified! They need to hire me! Once I finished my interview I got to look around at the gallery. The show that was up was called No Artist Left Behind. And it was all art work by students in k-8. and there was alot of amazing work....I mean I was so jealous! and all the great artists always thought that we were all just trying to work backwards. When we are young we have all this pure creative energy that is corrupted by overthinking the older we get. We all want to create art like children. Makes me look at my art as constructed and pretentious.....which is annoying because I try to create pure tangible truth....but really it's just pretentious bullshit. ..Makes me want to do better art. On a completely unrelated note Mr. Hedgehottie is coming to visit in 4 days. these are going to be the longest and shortest 4 days of my life. Not only will the days as whole drag, but especially the work hours....and then the home hours will fly. I have so much cleaning to do but instead I'm typing diary entries and designing layouts, and I have to write him a nice email. I seriously need a time turner. But I can't wait for him to be here...I'm smiling all the time and being all silly and girlie. really, I such a girl. |
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