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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
| Paranoia and Sexual tenstion May 24, 2002 2:29 a.m. Related Reading So I had alot of sexual tension inregards to B tonight. No. I don't think it was mutual. nope it was me. I've been having all these weird thoughts about him lately, I mean 'what if' type thoughts. And I've been feeling remarkablly guity about them, which means he knows (B's psychic, he always says it helps when people feel guilty about them. so tonight was at his house, and we were watching a movie, and I was laying on the couch, and he was sitting on the floor at the end and we were in very close prioximity...which is something I never do. and I would have some thought about it being uncomfortable...my being embaressed, and feeling alittle different, and feeling bad about it, and feeling stupid and pathetic and girlie and at the same time thinking it is natural and an okay thing..I mean he's told me before that he has the biggest crush on one of his long term friends (one before he met me) and that it's okay to have a crush on a friend, you don't have to act upon it.....so I was telling myself these thing, and throwing in a 'he knows' every now and again,...and one time I had one of those thoughts and he responded to it,...he was like "what?" ..just out of the blue. Sure sure...it's nothing you say, sure sure I'm paranoid you say. Trust me. I'm not. |
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