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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
 so I was thinkingMay 27, 2003 2:33 a.m. Related Reading This whole whatever it is with the Christian guy has gotten me rethinking my friendships with B and C, or rather what those friendships have taught me. I started blaming my being my physical shyness on B, because he freaks out when I touch him. But then I was the same way with the guy I was kinda seeing my freshman year (freshman mistake, everyone has one) was very reluctent to touch him....but then I really wasn't into him. Yeah. I always used to chase after the boys in grade school, wonder what caused the change. my friendship with B and C has taught me to be loud mouthed, opinionated, confident (? over confident?), and fast on the draw to deliever a one liner. This qualites don't seem to be fitting in with this new crowd. ....I gave 2 one liners when I was with them and both FLOPPED! It was like a movie, I expected to hear a belly flop noise. Do you know how long it has been since it told a one liner that nobody laughed at? Oh and I'm not just saying the didn't laugh, they just looked at me in silence blinking....wow I am just going to have to stop telling them in that circle of friends. I'm debating whether I should paint my nails or do yoga. ...Actually I should do yoga. but I think I'll paint my nails an then to bed in a bit. yea, hopefully I'll see the boy tomorrow. |
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