See, what I didn't mention was that after I received my letter telling me that my appeal was denied....that was the finally straw and I went into a full on ugly cry. ....I mean it was bad. I haven't had one of those in atleast a year.....and it was something in regards to the Tboy.

So then I took a shower to calm myself down, and then drove over to B's to see him, because he's the one I need to see when I'm feeling that bad. ...so I drove over and parked in front of his place was the car of this chick I really don't like. So...I wasn't going to go up to visit him in a fit of hysterical crying with her being there...so I stay out in my car and cried abit....this guy drove past me, and then back up to make sure I was alright. (that was kind of humorous.)

Then I composed myself and drove over to the coffeehouse to relax and read and get my mind off things. But...that didn't happen, so I used the puter there to write the prevous entry. And then realizing that I wasn't going to get any reading done, I drove back over to B's, finding that the chick had left, and I went up and cried somemore.

Now the thing with him is that he has this ablity to make you feel better when you feel that shitty. I mean when you feel so down that you are convinced that absolutely nothing anyone can say or do with make you feel better, he is able to do it. ...He does this with everyone.

He told me to realize that when I go home my dad with be alchol free, which is something I had been complaining about since he met me. And he reminded me that Clark Kent is one of the hall directors and would surely know how to get me out of my contract. ..And when I told him that I was also crying because I was worried about him, he told me not to worry because there was nothing to worry about, and he's not worried. He told me that if he was worried than there would be something to worry about. ..And he had spoken with his mom and she is going to pay for him to get some things checked out.