Anyway, this dream is a manifestation of how I am feeling this urgent desire to call him, that for some reason he is needing me to come back into his life.

In the dream I'm somewhere and somehow I get a message or a feeling, or a call, something I can't remember that makes me realize that he needs to see me. So I go to the dream version of where he works...and I walk in and there is a chick at the counter and and I tell her that I need to see him, and she tells me that he's out back and he's really upset. She tells me that he's about to go to prison and that his cellmate (and I get a mental picture of this guy) intends to do some very disturbing things to him.

So I go out back and he's sitting down on the stoop. and I sit down beside him and give him a hug. He hugs me back, with desperation, holding me tight as if he never wanted to let me go. he just kept whispering that he was so scared. during the course of the dream I would stop hugging him for some reason, but he would always hug me again, with the same desperation. At one point I stand up and ask him if he wants to do something (some how at this point the scene has moved to the family room at my parents house.) I ask him if he wants to watch a movie, so he gets up and starts looking though my movies, he picks out Rose Red (which is Bri's dvd) ..and I tell him that we can't watch it because it is 6 hours long...and that my dvd player is broken.

It's around this time that I get a feeling of how urgent the situation is, he starts acting like he has to see this movie and there's no time to spare, so he wants to go to his house and watch it (which I get the feeling is a good hour or more away. So he tells me to grab some things and follow him, and then he leaves, and I'm panicing trying to get things together so I can take off and try and catch up with him because I have no idea where he lives. ...and it was at the point I wake up.

Often people think I'm sucking up to my professors, but most of the time I really do like them.

Dick on the other hand,.....I kiss his ass like no other.

I got really lucky. He happens to be a Squrrel Nut Zippers fan, and so I am. I'm a BIG fan. And maybe the second day or so of class, maybe the third day, anyway, he was playing some music that sounded like them, I knew it wasn't them but it sounded like them. and I mentioned that to one of my friends in the class, and shortly after someone else was actually asking Dick what the music was,...and I took the opprotunity to walk over and ask him about it, and if he had heard of the Zippers. He said he had, and...in fact had all 3 of their albums. ..I told him that they in fact of 4. ..and went out to my car and got their 4th cd, Bedlum Ballroom, which had been out for awhile, and loaned it to him. He's had it since, and everyday he comes in and reports to me how many times he has listened to it. So that got me on his good side. that combined with the fact I'm a hard working, and I've been lucky enough that 2 times when I've come in to work outside of class, (one was last saturday afternoon and the other the other night) he has come in. So that also gives me Dick points.

And THAT keeps him from laying into me. For example, he told a friend of mine the same day I loaned him my cd, that she should drop out of school and that she should go a way and that he never wanted to see her face again. (she's an art ed major and needs to class to graduate.....he did something like that to her the last time she took the class, and made her cry.) She said she almost cried this time.