Dark and rainy day
June 11, 2005 3:34 a.m.

the windows are shut and the curtains drawn.

A Red Candle Burning.

wearing a tiny little something of black.

drinking red wine from a bulky green goblet.

And it tastes surprising well.

It's all a part of the same blanket.

I've been making art again.

the Muse has awakened*.

(*more on that later)

tonight Becky and I watched the documentary Jandek on Corwood, which was amazing and inspiring, and all apart of the same blanket.

We saw a trailer for the film some months ago. At the time I had not heard of Jandek, but Becky had. (Seems it would be fitting of this entry to call her Rebecca.) She mentioned that she had been meaning to aquire some Jandek but hadn't gotten around to it yet.

Kurt Cobain once said, "Jandek isn't prententious, but the people who listen to Jandek are".

Jandek, if you do not know, (I have a feeling everyone knows about Jandek now if a 20 something white bread chick from Indiana is writing about him in a blog,...ugh gag me.)

is a man who as been releasing albums since the 70's. He makes them himself on his super secretive label and no one really know anything about him expect for what you can speculate from listening to his 40 odd albums and looking at their distintive and enigmatic cover art.

it's all spectulation.

And it's amazing, and pure.

How to you buy Jandek?

Apparently the easist way,...the one Becky and I have been meaning to do for months, ...is the write a letter to Corwood Industries, enclose a check, and a request for what albums you want,...and it will be sent to you promptly.

That's right you get it from the man himself.

that personal touch is amazing, and profound, and brillent.

the documentary only increased my desire to obtain some.

Of course I wish to not form any real accessment of Jandek until after I've heard a few albums. (I'm planning on getting 2 and so is becky....eventually)

Till then....I will write about things I know more about.

*I think the muse has finally awakened.

I know I've been staying that for months, hell...the past year, but I think it's true.

I think it started with the knowledge that I have to retrive my pieces from Rose Hulman. This is rather disheartening....the idea that they are no longer being seen and I have to store them somewhere.

The giant frame that had been sitting in my living room was finally turned into a stretched canvase. Carrie is coming over tomorrow to pose for me. ...be my portrait slave, my portrait wench.

the other frame, sitting directly to my left, ....I'm planning on stetching it as well....and very soon. I have in my head a portrait of becky, I only hope she'll be willing to sit for it. ...She hates having her picture taken...maybe she'll suport my art.

Yesterday I decided that I will enter the Swope show again. Didn't fair very well the last time I entered...mainly because my art is too liberal for a conservative town....but damnit it's worth a try and it gives me a goal and a deadline, even if it is a week away.

Today, had you seem me....you would have sworn I had just gotten laid.

Making art has the type of affect on me. I'm Giddy and Joyous and witty and carefree.

wow it feels good to be an artist again.

I'm so excited about tomorrow and getting to make a painting.

I'm excited about the day after when I start another.

I'm making plans to finish my portfolio and send it out, thoughts of contacting galleries.

I even realized that I could submit my paintings at Rose for the swope show! This was exciting knowing that I already had A work ready to submit. I can burn a disc w/all three pieces and mail it tomorrow if I'm so inclined. ...it really puts less pressure on me to come up with something brillent in a short tyime span if I know that actually,...I'm going to have too much work that I want to submit.

I can only submit 3 pieces. ..which as forementioned...I already have. But...I plan to do these 2 portraits and it would be nice to finish the brillent piece that has been sitting in my living room for over a year. Now I'm stuck. I have 6 pieces....do I want to go with portraits or really non objective mixmedia. ..I'll decided when the time comes.

Mean while I have to figure out how to upload from my parents digital camera.