various thoughts and rants.
September 07, 2004 3:25 p.m.

And I was worth it, I have to say.

And I used to think I hated the alias writers, but I was wrong, soooo werong. I really hate them sooo much right now, 6 eps in.

I have to say that my infatuatuation with Mr. Conductor (as I just decided to call him) is still continuing....though I think he's cuter in retrospect. I remember thinking he was quite dreamy...and then when he came in again I was a bit let down...and then after he left I started thinking that he was really cute. Man, I'm such a girl.

In a completely (and honestly) unrelated note I think I need a new toy....a new "Toy". ....though I'm not quite sure what. I think I'm just itchin' for a trip to Prucilla's.

In a somewhat related note I have been reading Jenna Jameson's auto biography, not because Mr. Hedgehoggy has been hyping it,...but because I was interested in reading it ever since I heard she was releasing it. I am always in awe whenever watching an interview with her. She is so smart and so articulate....and not to mention funny that I couldn't wait to read what she had to say. ....And the interesting thing is that I have been getting more critizism for reading it from men then women. Marty read a bit and started making over generalizations and just looking down on her.....And he's all into porn so I figured he'd been into it. ...And the book actually started a multiple hour debate with my friend Aric ...and the waitress at the bar we were at...concerning the porn industry. ...I think if anyone won ...it was me. ...My point was the porn industry is not the big evil that people make it out to be.....granted I'm not saying it's the greatest thing in the world....but again, it's not the big evil....I think the Hip Hop industry is worse at objectifying women, I mean people watch porn for different reasons,...porn is enjoyed by men as well as women. The hip hop industry is what is really objectifying women....you gotta have your bling, gotta have the Bentley and then the bitch.

And what are reality shows like Survivor and Big Brother,.....And Fear factor...what does that say about our culture....

and how yeah, the NBA.....especially with the showing of the olympic basketball team. Over paid men who are looked at as heros and rolemodels.

And the thing is you have to be 18 to buy porn....not I'm not saying that youngsters don't have access to porn,...hell I saw more video and magazines when I was in middle school than I do now. ....my point is...that youngsters have to seek them out...and when I was looking at those things I knew I'd been in trouble if I was caught. Hell my mom gave me such a scolding one day when she found my Barbie dolls (Barbie and Ken) having sex that I think that is what caused me to never really discuss my personal sexuality with my mom....which also might explain why I have a lack of dating history.

My point is...that regardless of what MTV trys to say they are not being watched by 18-24 year olds....they are being watched by 13-18,....And what exactly is TRL teaching our children....I mean, JayZ has that song "I have 99 problems but a bitch ain't one"?

again, I don't think the porn industry is the big evil....I mean atleast the porn industry isn't trying to hide what it is.....I mean...I remember watching MTV's 12 Angry Mothers....and it was the mother's of musicians rating the videos.....and all the mothers were insulting all the other videos....but said LL Cool J's "Doin'it" video was apporopriate because LL is all about the children.

yeah, not the big evil.

Now that I've ranted for a bit longer than anticipated I need to go.

later yo.

My point is the Porn industry is not the big evil. I don't see why it is always singled out as the one thing that everyone one is against.