I found out that my application to cancel my dorm contract for next year was denied. See what happened was I was told last spring that if I signed up for a room and but did not show up before the 'no show date' I would not be held response able for the room. So I signed my lease on my apt. for all of next year. But....I found out that the school was going to charge us for room and board whether I lived in the dorm or not. ....I had to fill out an application to request to get out of my 'contract' and as I just said, it was denied. Bastards. I am most definately going to appeal again. I really have no choice. but I guess If need be and can see if B wants to sublet my apt. He does need a place to live, but mine place is a bit more expensive than what he wants, and a bit far away.

So to sum up.

My dad lost his job and is in rehab.

my best friend has cancer.

I have no job.

I have to pay room and board for the dorm as well as rent in my apt.

is there any more shit that can go wrong today?

Maybe I shouldn't ask that.

I'm Claire, who are you? by Clicks and Buzzes

We went out and had a drink and then went back and watched a classic film, End of the Affair, and drank some wine.

With about a half and hour left of the film, the most dramatic part, his house mate (who has actually moved out) popped in to visit us. It seems that he had went to a party and drank some, and went to our favorite bar and drank some before coming to visit us. ..So he was pretty trashed. And of course, B offers him more. all be has was Vanilla run and rasberry flavored vodka, both taste good with milk, but he apparently his house mate gets really sick when he mixes milk with alchol, he told us the hylarious story of this one time where he threw up on his father.

Anyway, I getting very far away from the point of this entry...

As he(housemate) was leaving he and B got into some sort of sexually related coversation, I wasn't paying attention, and somehow I was brought into the conversation and Bri's housemate said that he wouldn't think twice about doing me, so then he says something to me like the next time he's single, if I'm single will go at it.

Now then, B's housemate is hot, and he's really cool, but he's also a big skank. He as slept with so many people! Basicly the reason he and is woman got back together is because they were tired of not getting some. So instead of realizing that they couldn't give the other person what they needed, they decided to get back together.

Anyway, my point is that while I do find him attractive, he is NOT on my 'to do' list. But...he was saying this jokingly as he was leaving, so I played along and said, 'yea'.

And he decided to 'play' along more...he was like "Yea?" and took it jokingly as what am I wait for, and some what attacked me. See, I was laying down on B's couch in my pj's holding my teddybear and he just jumped down on top of me and was holding on to my waist really hard. so me, begin stocked and somewhat started didn't know what to say or do, so I started clawing him and digging my nails into him trying to get him to get off of me, ...which in turn he reacted that he enjoyed it and that I "Knew what he liked". At one point did manage to say stop, and he got off of me.

Now I know he was just playing, and nothing worse could have happened because I know that B wouldn't have let anything else happen, but still, giving my experience level and how I really dislike being touched most of the time, and I'm not used to being touched (I mean yesterday B and I were in a store and he touched my waist, and I wasn't expecting it, and it scared me that I jumped and knocked something off the shelf).