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| nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME --Wurdz by Otep Shamaya |
| Alcohol addiction July 18, 2002 5:23 p.m. Related Reading I worked this afternoon so I have temporary access to a 'puter. I think I'll be coming in tomorrow morning before I visit the oral villians. So....as of Tuesday my dad was admited to the treatment center of inpatient care. My mom said he could be there for 2-3 weeks. It's so weird to think about, I think I'm still in a bit of denial. ..I mean the concept that my dad's not going to drink when he gets out, ..Not at all, Not only is he giving up the 3-4 manhattens with dinner and martini's with friends, but also beer, and a glass of wine with dinner. It's so weird considering the fact there isn't a time I can remember when he didn't drink. It will be interesting to ajust to. As well as it makes me consider my own drinking habits, and whether I should be drinking at all. I mean, I don't drink all that much, but no one starts off a heavy drinker. and addiction runs very high in my family, which is why I wasn't ever going to drink, but I have opt-ed to change my mind and have the occasional drink, or have the occasion night to go out drinking with friends, but I just wouldn't want this to happen to me. Be forced to resign my job and enter treatment. and see, what bothers my dad about all this is the fact that he wishes they would have asked him to get treatment, and then if he didn't, ask him to resign, instead of the other way around. And the county will only pay his retirement according to the last paycheck he gets, so if he takes the $10,000 pay cut, that will be what his retirement is based on, not how many years he spent at the high paying position. |
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