Raven in Green again..

nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME

--Wurdz by Otep Shamaya

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July 01, 2004 8:19 p.m.

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Hmmmm there is so much that I could write about right now. ...and most of it's bad. ..so I don't quite know what I feel the need to say.

I guess I'll start off by saying that I got fired yesterday. I'm not really sure why. Apparently someone didn't like me and or I just wasn't learning fast enough for them...but and the end of the day my manager wanted to see me and told me that they were letting me go, and were sorry things didn't work out as hoped.

I was there a week. ...a WEEK! ...how fast did they expect me to learn and perfect this shit?

First off, their computers were in the stone age. I mean....they seriously had to be aleast 11 years old...maybe older. I swear I think they remind me of the computers I used in grade school. ...So I had to get used to using the "F" keys...and having to work my way though the system with enter, Fsomething and ESC.

And the thing was the lady training me kept saying that she wasn't good at explaining things. ...So if you don't explain it properly how am I supposed to learn?

Eh...But I guess this way I can pay my rent this month without dipping in to savings and I've gained some experience...now I can go find a job that I like more, that pays better and is closer to home. ...because the pay there really wasn't all that great, and I had a long drive to get there, and really what all do I know about cars anyway.

Most of my best qualities weren't even being used in the position....I mean, I'm a fast typer...and I wasn't typing any thing, ....Anyway. Who knows that I did to piss them off in less than a week but....eh...for the best I guess. ...Oh and when I went in today to get my pay check, there as a new girl working, so that had to have called her atleast yesterday and see if she wanted to start today,...so they had to have decided on atleast Monday that they were going to fire me. What did I do in that span of four days to make they decided to get rid of me? I mean, I was possibly over dressed.and I was usually early to get there and to come back from lunch. I guess I just wasn't learning fast enough, or I did something to piss the top boss off. ...who knows.

Now I can contact Mr. Shiver in the Dark and see if he needs an assistant.

Fired just in time for my birthday. (which is tomorrow)which of course no one is ever around to celebrate it because it's so close to the 4th. I never have a party with more than 3 people. Everyone is off doing things with their families. I think I'm going to go out and get coffee and read to celebrate.

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