Raven in Green again..

nothings changed the senates still corrupt & the emporer remains insane, and every day, is a new strain of slaughter, supply lines are less protected, evil on all sides, eye can smell the death on your flesh--creeping in, trapped within the twisting fingers of fear, and all eye see is ewe, that face, those eyes, burning like leprosy, eye can see u there poisoning the air, prostituing Nationalism, and eye want to attack, to rip out your heart and lay you flat on your back, and vomit a world of agony and truth into your throbbing illness of memory...and hate guides our way, eye long for the icy slap of a belt across my back, for the acceptance of death and blind cave war, the giving sleep of depression, the sweet elucidation of savage meaningless agression, chiseled in the meaty forearms of Mother Jupiter and his slave disciples, in the harem tents--outside, just beyond the edges--eye ride, a cycoptic mare in the fires of imagination. feeding my disease, a river of plagues, eye need something to remind me I'm still sinning that pain is important, that wurdz matter, that healing is possible, that eye am not alone ...in this --guard the houses--triple the watch,--Maidens, dig up your sorcery --sirens, sharpen your rocks..ewe will eat my pain again. whatever you need unite messiah ME

--Wurdz by Otep Shamaya

new piercing?
January 29, 2004 7:49 p.m.

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so today when I was at work I was briefly admiring how nice my stomach is getting in the mirror, and I started thinking maybe I when it gets better maybe I should get my navel pierced. and then I remembered, "Wait, NO! I don't want that!!!!". Navel piercings are horrible for about every possible reason. From pain to infection to the fact that it is just ridiculously trendy.

And then I had a thought. ...as Poe would say, "A Terrible thought". ...and intriguing thought.

What if I got my nipples pierced. and maybe not both, maybe just one. some nice iittle decortive element of rebeliousness right there, hiding under my clothes that only I know about it....and maybe a few other people...like B because I'd blindfold him and force him to hold my hand when I got it. mmmm could be nice.

Curves and Alias
January 29, 2004 7:26 p.m.

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So Have I mentioned I joined Curves? Well I did...back in October or November. ...something like that. And I have to say, I love it! While some days it is a bit difficult to motivate myself to go (I might be tired or hungry or something) I have so much fun while I'm there! And since I'm generally of the opinion that life is too short to be worried that people think I'm weird...I wear the wackiest things to work out in...and I do that wackiest things on the recovery boards (this is the wear you walk or jog or do whatever to keep your heart rate up for 30 second between machines). sometimes I dance like a hoochie mama. some times I flit around throwing my arms in the air like a ballerina on crack. Some times jump with my arms out like a marionette. ....I love it!!! Plus I like that I'm getting buff and that I can look in the mirror and see my stomach starting to get flatter.

But the point of the matter is that this is the perfect American work out...which is why it is so popular. It requires minimal time and effort. Depending on how many laps one does and what sort of stretching the work out is basically a half and hour and is low impact. We weight conscience Americans have to have an easy work out that takes 30 minutes and shows results. I get off work, I go change clothes and work out. ....I'm falling into this horribly regular and normal routine. ...after working out I come home, shower, cook dinner watch alittle tv (or maybe 4 eps of Alias. ~wink~) pop online, maybe read a bit...speak with my flatmate briefly and go to bed. How lame and ordinary is that!?!?

Oh and the nz guy and I were discussing Alias tonight..

nz: its pretty addictive huh?
Raven: I watched 6 in a row last friday.
nz: yeah, I quite like it, as I said we are in the middle of the second series here at the mo nz: you getting that also?
Raven: heh ~giggles~ I await the day when I get past where you are. Then I will sit back and laugh.
nz: grrr!
Raven:: ~big smile~ I'm so bad.
nz: indeed
nz: but you like that
nz: see, bitchin program huh?
Raven: heh....I always expected it to be like Dark Angel, which I think is horribly corny.
nz: Garner is one hot babe
Raven: she is pretty hot....though I think my favorite look was the red hair from the pilot.
Raven:: although the short red hair she had when she went to that club was pretty hot too.
nz: mmm, she does some good things with her hair, and ah ahem her clothes
Raven:: ~smile~ yeah...you don't notice the plot much do you? ~wink~
nz: oh yeah I follow that too, tis all good
Raven: ~smile~ I was totally teasing.
Raven:: as I'm so good at that.
nz: indeed you are

Oh and the weirdest thing (okay maybe not the weirdest thing...but still pretty damn weird) Is his first name begins with 'D'. ..and I've always called my dad "D" ...it started off by my calling him "DA" And then just became 'd' it's weird I can't call him dad..he's 'D'. but...the NZ guy will often us that initial when he emails me or sometimes when he says 'bye'. OH and he references me as "R". .....since I call my dad 'D" ...he has a tendency to call me "R" ...especially when I'm whining ...."Ddddd" he'll mimic me going "Rrrrr". when the Nz guy well take off and say, "Night R" ....ewww!

Wow. that was a line of thought. thank the 2 cups of coffee I just had for that.

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